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sori bloggie....2got 2 tell u alot of things....esp da audition..so sad....so sad....maybe confidence dun wan 2 cum me...or im 2 blind 2 look 4 it...
be4 da audition,i was praticin....i was kinda confidnce n love my sound....ok...tonguein n alot of things were correctin...thus i lik my sound...but i noe stil got rm 4 improvement...but at least im rdy 4 audition....
anw,i now usin da bass t-bone...n a new mothpiece...as in new new 1...coz is frm shap's new t-bone de...he noe got new 1...chao shiny n nice...but wif new t-bone,player not gd who can help???nobody!!!!
ok...so,be4 audition,i very relag,i even run 2 round(small 1s =X)coz shap sae it can build air surport...im so happy n not very nervous 4 da sudition...gd sign....but da sign is leadin me 2 a bad place...
when go in da rm..i still OK....stil can joke...but when i play da 1st 3 notes of emp,all i can sae is...WTF....i play wrong lorh!!!tone rly suck!!!!!I REALY REGERTED IT!!!!den my confidence lik...sink 2 da deep deep sea....n it didnt came back...
i crack,i missed da intonation,i didnt articulate wel,i didnt THINK!!!...well result=i didnt get in!!!
i was on da line....dat is probation...
when got dis msg frm cs after meth enrich...i rly....stunned....ok...i knew it....but i still very sad... coz 2 me,i tink its quite unfair for people who work hard 2 get in proba den dose who didint...i noe sae dis is hurtin....but didnt get in is also hurtin!!
on wed,when i was washin my mouthpoece,le see me den kept saein dat i wan 2 cry...ya i wanted 2...n i always wanted 2...coz i tink by cryin...my stress not so much...but not at dat time...coz i dun 1 2 be malu....so idiot rite???
ya...ok...but when i get a note frm rose,at 1st i haven rd den my tear drop...ok tear onli....den later i read....ok...den i cry liao....im quite happy dat i cry...not dat i siao...but...my blood leakin frm my heart becoz of alot of things seemed 2 become tears which came out frm my eyes...i shall not stop it 1st....coz i wan my pain 2 be relived...but when ms yak came into da class,i dried my tears....n back 2 reality i m...but throughout da math lesson,i want listenin...coz my ears onli heard.....'SANDRA...U FAILED'....
here,i wan 2 sae sumthings....2 sum people out dere....my mouth not workin...hehe:
to t-bone seniors:thx 4 helpin me....results dat came out bad frm me not becoz of u all r bad...its juz dat im 2pid...hehe...anw,js....thz...4 askin me whether i need help...hehe...i need help..frm myself...coz effort dat needa be put in is frm myself...
to rose:bein ur angel...i kinda failed be a gd 1....coz i kept givin u excuses dat im tired...so cannot write u msg....but dey r juz nonsence....n u,bein a mortal,rly is mr angel...i noe its weird...but u rly r da 1 i can depend on when i hav 1000s of prob...wif u,i stil can hav smiles....no pressure k?juz wana thx u but duno how...hehe
to yujing:u r my bez friend...1 of dem....be wif dem 2...u wil feel beta...dun tink dat tings werent cumin ur way...dey r juz in front of u...u hav 2 stretch ur hand 2 reach it....no point bein sad when sumthing u need is juz in front of u....pls...dun be sad...WE r ur friends..
to shiling n hazel:hehe...huanny friends...prac wif me everytime,encourage me....thx...live wil be so difficult without u all....pluz yujing n zhenghui...thz 4 shling anw 4 tellinme my mistakes when playin...thz....n stop bangin da lamp post...^^..conrgrats anw...
to ah zheng:haha... i write 2 u da last coz i u r da onli surpporter of my blog!!!ok...sumtimes plus shiling...anw,i noe u will rd 2 da last...wm i rite o_0...hehe....u r da frien whom nowadays i tell damn alot of things 2...hehe....unstopable...juz wana thnk u 4 eatin improper lunch wif me..oops...hehe...no lah...got alot of things...but i cant name it....hehe...juz wana tel u...u rawk!!
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