band...
8:48 PM
2dae is da worst day of my life....shld hav gone polyclinic wif rach 2 see doctor,take mc...den dun need go sch...can hide in my shell...den need see so much kuku things...
2dae....1st is da animal farm thingie...omg...da damn music....how m i suppose 2 get it rdy???den my member say things dat r so kuku....i shall not eloborate dat...hehe....=(my class...not rdy... dun tink we are near rdy....well let's see then
after sch...i went 2 find mrs yeap 2 tell her da music thing...she sae go find mr chia....ok i was abt 2 go...den i heard da intro of emprata(my part...ok...ONCE my part)...at 1st i tried 2 ignore....but...band stil not in my hate list....its stil impt 2 me....so i run 2 da back of the band...den listen....when dey gona finish,i wanted 2 go down....den saw steph....she sae i a little bit involve wif it....but i didnt go...i stil dun tink i hav da courage 2 go see dem....
alot of people tink i weird weird de...but...ya i m....samantha even ask me....y i dun dare 2 go band rm?its MY band rm...ya...but now...i....duno lah...juz tinkcim useless in band...n its kinda thick skin to juz go see dem...
da worsts thing is...since sec1...im always near da band watchin....now im sec 2 le...n im still watchin.. so near yet so far...when m i ...mature enough 2 play wif dem?1 mth?1 yr? 10 yr???
den i damn damn sad....go home dat time....so quiet....not even a word of encouragement....nvm den....if front of every1 i so noisy....but not when in front of u...maybe my crappiness cant help me express myself well....
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